Far too long...

Well, It has been far too long since my last post. I promised myself I wouldn't let my blog go the way of most blogs. This was supposed to be a place of deep, longing thoughts. I failed to blog about my new move into our new home. We've gotten so far since my last post. So far as stuff is concerned. This stuff of earth. We are in a different place physically, that's for sure. I however can say that I'm definitely growing and maturing as I should. I don't want to find myself at the end of each shortened year realizing not much has changed. I'm a fan of "new." "Old" is boring right? Mundane. Similar. But somehow "new" becomes "old." It never fails. Chasing after "newness" is what I find myself doing time and time again, and I have to remind myself that this cycle isn't what my Heavenly Father desires for me. I'm grateful for the awareness of it. I feel I'm getting better at it. But it still competes. I'm sure it always will. While I'm here at least.

I want to record more music. I want it to be quality. But there is so much quality out there. That's so completely obvious that it makes me realize that I need not apply for the position of quality. It's been over-filled and over-booked. I guess I want to share as much as the next guy. And as newness and quality become old and surpassed, only few things really make a lasting impact. Heart. What's done for bringing people's hearts to a greater understanding and knowledge of Jesus-- that lasts.

I'm currently listening to Andy Gullahorn, and I'm blown away by the sheer grace and beauty of his musical prowess. I'm confused as to why I never heard his material before. And as I listen I am becoming aware that he sings songs and strives for the same things the rest of us do. We're all a bunch of stories. Songs.

I hope I continue to sing and write and record music of quality. I hope it's not too few and far too long in between those moments. But I pray I never become the sum of the newness... I never want to become the sum of all this stuff...

Erwin McManus said once that your legacy isn't what people remember you by...but that it's the momentum your life carries on after you're gone.

Those are heavy, simple words.